My internet is slow too. This is my only message.
YOU NEED A HIDDEN CAMERA! when is your next class?
something ocurred to me.
My day, valentines day.
I just wanted to also say I have a Valentine. I was crafty and made him something spiffy with cute notes on it. Oh yeah baby ;) That’s how you attract ‘em.
But my monday…. Besides the free cuppy cakes and candy and being told that I was cute (people are so nice)… I had a moment.
Good or Bad…that’s arguable.
But there has been a select few people in my life who are just unpleasant to be around. One of which is a specific person who lacks a great deal of personality. The extent of her conversational ability is talking about the plethora or drugs she takes (lots of unhealthy stuff, man…that’s not cool), the graphic detail of her sex life with men much too old (She’s fucking 15 and which a 28 year old. I’m not one to judge age, but that’s still illegal. And frankly, I don’t want to know about how much someone enjoys anal. i didn’t ask. You told. I am scarred for life.) and just constant vying for attention. She can’t get through a minute without someone reassuring her poor choices.
So she came up to me, in her smelly, slutty glory.
And honestly, there is nothing attractive about a 15 year old is a too low cut, tight shirt wearing stockings and a tutu with too much make up on who obviously lacks the ability to smell herself and notice that she smells of gutter and filth and awful body odor.
And she often tries to run up to me and rub her face on my arm and tell me how much she loves me. (AWKWARD) So today she runs up to me all “AAAAH ERIN WE NEVER TALK! I LOVE YOU! AAHHHH! BLAAAH!” making these screeching noises. She’s about to rub on me.
I HAD TO STOP HER!
Normally I am polite. I try to diffuse the situation and excuse myself. It’s not cool to make people cry. But I was is such a terrible mood at that very instant. So my only reaction was to vocalize my distaste.
Stop. Turn around. I do not want to talk to you. I do not want to see you. We are not friends. We have nothing in common. Please stop attacking and clinging onto my limbs when you see me in the halls because you require the attention of others and like to claim that you are cool because you are “LIEK TOTES BFFS WITH A UPPERCLASSMAN! YEAH WE HANG OUT ALL THE TIME BLAAAAAH”
Being friends with people who are older doesn’t make you cool. Character and Integrity makes you coold.
And You have a lot of issues that you should work out on your own. I am not getting involved with this.
I felt a little bad for being so bitchy.
But at the same time i felt a little victorious. Shameful, I know.
That’s a story.
We shall do that! The shops, that is. I am free sunday afternoon and monday (maaaybe) :D
And idk about saturday. But it is a possibility. We’ll figure it all out.
And you may try to be invisible. But you’re just too pretty for it to to work. Really. If you were trying to be super girly you’d be boring and blend in. You being so interesting and unique probably attracted his attention. maybe play his game. Make a friend.
What did he look like?
Are. You. Kidding.
Marysol! You’re gorgeous! Absolutely gorgeous! Boys notice that. Even though tv and movies make it seem that boys go after to the slutty girls, it’s usually the super awesome girls like you they want.
I WANT YOU! OOH BABY! <3
So I hope everyone had a nice Valentines Day.
And I don’t want to hear any of that “ew singles awareness day.” There is no reason to hate this fake holiday. People give you free candy like it’s no big deal! I had SO MANY CUPPYCAKES YESTERDAY!!!! AWWWW YES :D
But yeah… It’s been a long few weeks. I am feeling much better now. All signs of sickness completely gone!
I had a good time with Marysol on saturday, but I had to leave early because I wasn’t feeling so well. We’ll have another day together. I felt bad for having to ditch her like I did.
This week has been especially rough. My mom has been away for work a lot. She works really hard. She was on one business trip, allowed to come home for one day, and then had to leave first thing the next day for another trip.
Over the weekend my dog died. I was really upset about that. She was the best dog ever. It’s really weird not having to walk her after school or deal with her constant wandering around the house. I guess I’m not over it. Even though I don’t really look upset ever.
I’ll adapt. It’ll be okay. But still, I miss having such a goofy oddball doggy.
But she was old. And that silly kids movie All Dogs Go to Heaven is sorta reassuring. My dog didn’t have a gambling or drinking problem. So she should be up with the other dogs being awesome.
You can tell I was really feeling shitty by my lack of tumblr. I just had no patience for it since I felt so bad. But now that I’m feeling my best in two weeks, I AM REBLOGGING EVERY BEAUTIFUL PICTURE I SEE!
BECAUSE I CAN!
and really, they’re just lovely pictures…
And now my sister is off to her Roller Derby practice and I have to clean my room before I can go out and have an amazing day with my pretty and amazing MARISOL!!!!!
If I had a list of top five people in my life, Marisol would be there.
And I get to see her…TODAY.
And I haven’t seen her in a really long time. Last time I even talked to her was over skype.
MARISOL I MISS YOOOU!
My day yesterday felt…
So I was like…
And I stayed up really doing boring stuff.
Then I woke up this morning all…
But then I had some coffee and was like…
You always struggle to tell the difference between what’s in your head and real life.
Who cares. Fantasy is dandy too.
But Nothing beats having the real YOU.